Sweet Dilemma of Loving You

I have often wondered what my relationship with Krishna is.. which form of His do i love the most ? Krishnas devotees love him in various ways...some consider him as their son, some as their lover, friend, husband or as the Supreme God .

Dear Krishna,

I am so in love with all of your forms.

I wish that the darling son of Yashoda, were my little brother . I would hold you in my arms, listen to your nonsensical baby talk, chase you for stealing butter like Yashoda, tease you like the Gopis and tell on you, darling butter thief .. Kanna, your sweet innocent smile would make me forget all my duties..
It would be so much fun to play all those old pretending games i used to make up, with you..

I wish you were my best friend, Krishna.Together we would roam the forests of Vrindavan, climb the Govardhan hill and play all sorts of wild games. Consider me as one of your dear friends, Krishna..We would talk of everything under the sky . It would be heavenly to spend every day in your sweet company!

I wish I was your gopi, dear Krishna..this feeling of separation from you would only be a brief interlude, till we meet at banks of the Yamuna again. As you play your enchanting flute, I would stare into those loving eyes of yours forever..Madhava..

I wish I could serve you as my husband, too.. Krishna, though you had 16008 wives, not one of them felt ignored by you or that you loved them any else. Not gonna elaborate on the joys of serving you as your wife, :) 

I wish I could be your sister..like Subhadra or Draupadi . There is something so uniquely sweet and tender in the relationship between you and Draupadi..She would come running to you when in difficulties..confident that her Dwarakanath  , her brother and friend, would protect her always..

I wish to be embraced by you , as you did upon meeting your old friend Sudama after several years..To be addressed as  “ my dearest friend ” like when you speak to Arjuna..Knowing that my Krishna has got my back, whenever I feel scared or confused..to hear the words you spoke in the Gita from your own lips..

Krishna , you stole the hearts of the Vrajawasis in his childhood and youth. You became the Lord of Dwaraka..a king loved greatly by his people . You played your roles as a devoted husband , father and guide..

Though you came on Earth thousands of years ago, the fact that there are  millions of people who still love you so much is just so amazing..My Krishna lived a full life . He was the sweetest baby ever, the naughtiest little child , a passionate lover , the most caring husband, loyal friend, the greatest teacher and He is God.. 

Okay, now i really need to stop ranting about you . If this is the condition of someone who has only heard about you, never ever set eyes upon you...what to speak of those who have..I can only imagine..

Yours forever,
Lost Gopi

Dear Reader

Welcome to my blog. Here I intend to blog on my beloved Lord Krishna. Actually the main reason i decided to start this blog is because i have run out of pages on my diary a.k.a  'Letters to Krishna ' ( i know, its kind of a stupid reason ).

But, you see , I have this strange need to talk about Krishna, on how he influences my life, who i am, how he leaves me feeling sometimes...well, you get the drift. I talk to Him all the time, but all he does is return a smile..and theres not many people i can talk about him with, without leaving them feeling weirded out, lol.

I may write about other random things and aspects of my life here as well, but i find that Krishna is inexplicably linked to most of them.

My first few posts are going to be straight from my diary, like i am going to be updating it online. I seriously doubt if this blog is going to be of interest to anyone else except me.

Anyways, thanks for stopping by :)